could we back as we first met

some years ago

when i was looking for love in my life

you came and offer me love 

love i wanted 

love i never felt before 

treated me like queen

could we back like we first met ?

as you wanted me 

as you missed me

as time is ours 

could we back like we first met ?

as we are found each other than lose it

love that you offered me

could it stay and not faded

could we back like we first met?

even we are bored , can we keep this love ?

but now your heart is leaving

i wish you back 

how long will i be 

wishing you like we first met?

lost is not easy to deal with

heart and mind keep echoing your name

even life is temporary

could i wish eternity love ?

which never fade of times 

my Allah tells me

call upon me

TNT

my heart is itching

when i think you with someone else

when will you understand ?

my jealousy is to protect of mine 

not my insecurity

dont you remember when we first met?

when we both feels same way

iam mad , like thunder

because i really do cares

i dont want you smile a lot with other girls 

i just want you show that only to me

im happy see you happy 

even when iam not include there 

but another part of me is craking

and your name like tornado is spinning 

around my mind

you know i told you my feelings

and no respond is a valid respond

you dont chasing me 

you dont try to reach me again

like you is okay for losing me 

feels its only me living in heartbreak

in our memories

its TNT exploid me

Orange

Its Orange season

its smells so sweet and fresh

its sign of spring breeze will comes 

grandmother will pick oranges from trees

and give to the child neighbor

this season many oranges harvested

its big, sweet and bit tangy 

we like to make orange juice 

we pressed it into mechine 

and flow the orange water to the big jar 

we stock for summer 

we will put ice on it

grandmother and mom like to make syrup 

they added some mounts rock sugar in jar 

it adds sweetness from the oranges 

we can put some water before drink it

its wipes out tangy and some sour from it

some kids also will make tanghulu oranges

they peel the orange and coat with sugar 

it cracked sounds is satisfying 

and juice will running out from mouth

dare me you would love it

every new year we will dress red 

it sign posperous 

and in table many oranges will serve 

in temple, road and some trees

it align with wishing for posperous 

i can eat as much as i want 

thats my favorite season for whole year 

will run to temple and seek 

while my mom and grandma pray

if you know how yummy it is orange for me

i would never exchange to anything than 

oranges

*this poettry story not based on true story*

Romeo and Juliet (Remake)

living in the fairy tale

shakespare romantic story

Romeo and Juliet

in my story remake it will be dramatic

this story begin

Romeo always sent his poetry to Juliet

Juliet favorite poetry when its written title 

" dearest to My Love "

Romeo was so Gentle

company Juliet when she sad 

Romeo also give her roses with every letter

Romeo smile bright when meet her

oneday Juliet was confused by every girls in village

they received same Romeo Genuine smile

Juliet thinks Romeo is friendly to them

Juliet seeking to Romeo room

she knows Romeo will be angry 

Romeo doesnt like to be questioned

he always asked Juliet just to trust him

every her question about girls makes 

romeo uncomfortable

but Juliet not stop there

Juliet found thousands poetry

send to many girls in village

Romeo not send letters written titles my love to them 

but Romeo send them letters with roses 

things Romeo did same things to her 

Juliet cant belive it, she was shocked

she questioned herself?

what make her special in Romeo heart 

when he treats girl in village same way?

while when Romeo knows juliet seek into

his room, Romeo suddenly Change,

he isn't Romeo that juliet knows

he is so sudden treats her like other girls in village

but more cold and distance himself to her

till the day Romeo came and told 

that he found a poison 

time after Juliet visit his room

Juliet not understand

why Romeo accused her like that?

Did Romeo knows she never have intention 

to hurt him?

how could Juliet possible bring poison to him?

Romeo looks sad and take poison by himself 

and drink it

Juliet saying to romeo do not drink 

but Romeo has dead by his poison

now left Juliet with no soul

she wasn't drink poison

but she dead inside

the end

*just remake story*

morral of stories " everything too much is like poison " 

Yet to remember

we called we have same passion 

enthusiasm and excitement

we never missed a day 

without call each others

morning, to afternoon , to the night 

we are often sleep side each other 

even when i saw you inside the box

i felt your existences

you are  always there with me 

we are talking, laughing and crying over movie 

we are hugging , cuddling and kissing

i love the way you are did it

when you said thinking about me, 

when you are need me by your side

when you missed me 

when you loved me 

when its time we are in perfectly relationship

we are dealing with argue

we are dealing with conflict

different mind and opinion 

i still jealous of any girls

i don't want you having by anyone else but me 

all that perfect relationship begin to faded 

time is decreasing , you spent most of time without me 

you texted me less and replied me longer

you can spend time with your friends for hours but only 1 to 1,5 hours call me

i deal with your new schedule of your university 

but your love faded to me

i don't know and i don't understand 

begin less say love nor missed me 

something that used to we say that mostly everyday, 

love for each day, i thought lesser saying love 

will make the love it self special but its not 

saying love everyday is better showing and gratitude of love 

i start felt lonely, even when talking with you, your soul like is not with me

you are not felt excited, or enthusiast 

you start in moody, feeling tired 

i tried to give you my energy 

positive vibes as you always do for me before 

i tried but seems you don't need my energy 

more you felt down more you away from me 

how supposed i do for you? 

i know we are thousand miles away 

but can i do something to put smile in your face again? 

that smile that i adore 

and i love i have lost it 

it changes and you confirmed it everyone could be change

but what happened? it supposed to be something happened?

you start saying iam hurting you and accuse you with someone new 

and be mad saying iam talking bad about your friend relationship

but why you offended of her? and stand by her? 

and telling me you asked her to your best friend birthday when you know im jealousy

i sensed you think of her differently

you blame me being mad all the time 

but iam mad of time you change

mad of girl you close with

you losing me so easy when i gave up to hold you , you said want to break up in friendly way

you are crying in moment 

but after you seems okay without me 

while i felt knive stab me 

so hurt , sometimes there is stone in my heart 

i tried to deal , im looking for activities 

but in moment im alone thats still there 

this feeling for love and missing you

why you change ? its on my mind everytime

even when you bored , we can do something else to make it fun again

when you need time for your activities , you can say you need time but will reach me after because you missed me

when you with your friends, you can still check for look after me a while because you think of me

but when you lost love for me 

how it possible to make you love me again? 

but did i have value to be loved ? 

i have begged for your time 

but it shouldn't for your love 

obsession will hurt me once it just one side 

they say time will healed 

we might healed but not memories

all these lovely memories haunted me 

this might me fallen over again 

my dearest and sweet and soft and cheerful we are

this memories are cursed and fortune in same time 

i have blessed to have this memories before it turn to hate and just hurt 

feeling to be fullest loved 

and fullest cared by someone before it ends

love i have never imagined 

my sorrow only to meet you in person

there is rope tied and hope is align to be unity as we are together 

but now you weren't mine 

and iam not yours 

still that rope tied on you ? 

or you set it free?

why dont you contact me? 

still there is hope on me 

have you think its totally end?

or is it just temporary end ?

and waiting for new beginning

new chapter , new story and memories 

between you and me 

is there any comeback?