Senin, 29 Mei 2023

Pohon Jati

Aku kayu pohon jati, mereka menyebutku kaku karena batangku yang menjulang lurus, sebenarnya aku tidak sekaku itu, aku bisa bercanda, aku suka tersenyum, dahulu saat aku tersesat aku bertemu dengan pohon besar, aku kira dia akan menghancurkanku, tapi dia membantuku menemukan jalan ku, pohon itu berkata, "kembalilah pada dirimu" , aku masih belum mengerti sepenuhnya, tapi aku amat bersyukur dia melepaskanku dan memberiku kesempatan, dahulu aku berpikir alangkah matahari bunga yang bermain bersama terlihat bersinar karena mereka tertawa bahagia bersama, dan aku di pojokan memandang mereka dengan perasaan ku ingin seperti mereka bukan menginginkan hidup mereka sepenuhnya atau iri dengan hidup mereka, aku hanya mengiginkan pertemanan yang tulus, saling support, sedih dan bahagia bersama, sesimpel itu inginku, dan aku bertanya, apakah akan ada teman yang seperti itu untuku? ternyata hal itu membuatku terperosok jauh kedalam hutan, bahkan aku dalam amarahku berbisik bahwa aku akan menumbuhkan duri dan racun di bawah pohonku yang rindang, tidak aku pohon jati tidak memiliki duri, aku cukup rindang untuk berteduh tapi aku tidak memiliki buah yang bisa di petik, mungkin kayuku akan amat berguna nantinya, ya setelah aku tiada mereka bisa menggunakan batang kayu ku yang awet dan tidak mudah hancur dimakan rayap, setidaknya kata kata pohon itu selalu terngiang-ngiang di benaku, saat itu aku benar benar takut, sendiri, gelap di tengah hutan, aku pikir aku takan ada harapan, meski nyatanya banyak harapan yang membentang, hanya saja aku belum melihat kedalam diriku, ya setidaknya sekarang aku si pohon jati masih berusaha mencari jati dirinya, terdengar klise? ya karena memang yang terjadi, tidak hanya satu orang, banyak orang yang merasakanya juga sehingga terdengar klise bagi sebagian yang telah melewati nya atau bagi sebagian yang masih belum mengerti maknanya , 

Selasa, 15 Maret 2022

Frozen Lake Eyes

eyes that deep and mystique
brought me to reality
all this time i caged in the shadow forest
almost get lost when we met
but there's hope 
you gave me new insights
when we both walking in the path
you trying to Reminds me
to close my eyes and relax 
when the shadows comes to pull me
what am i looking for?
you gave me things that i tried to find 
for so long
when we are together
the times just goes so fast
you trying to talking with me
when iam affraid to talked
your eyes isn't cold as it is looked
it is warmth when i saw it 
when you sad and you crying
it shocked me first
how can you express your sadness so freely
and let your emotions set free after
and comes to acceptance and forgiving
then when you try to understand 
those eyes its shines 
you always said you want to help me
what kind of help you offer 
i didn't understand
but now i can see that
ya i need help
i always think iam okay
our meeting its the universe coincidence
its beautiful ,im grateful with you
those frozen eyes like
remembering me of sunflower garden
its yellow, your favourite colour
and its tall and shining to the sun 
to the light like you,
can you always be like that 
until we out from the shadow forest
and find our way to be together 








Minggu, 13 Maret 2022

Dialogue cintaku

hey cintaku,

apa kabar kamu hari ini Sayang?

aku senang jika kamu bahagia 

aku ingin kamu terus bahagia 

tapi jika kamu ingin marah 

kamu boleh marah

jika kamu ingin menangis

kamu boleh menangis,

sini menangis dipundaku 

agar kamu merasa lebih tenang

apa tidur mu nyenyak hari ini sayang?

aku ingin memelukmu dalam tidurmu 

aku tahu kamu suka dipeluk 

apa kamu sudah makan hari ini sayangku?

jangan telat makan ya Sayang,

aku tahu kamu suka makanan enak 

hari ini kamu terlihat mempesona

pesonamu membuatku jatuh cinta

berkali kali tiada henti mencintaimu

untuk selamanya kita bersama 

pegang tanganku erat cintaku

kita menjelajah dunia ini

aku tahu kamu suka mengunjungi tempat yang indah yang bercengkrama dengan alam ataupun perkotaan

bersama denganmu sayang duniaku begitu indah 

teruslah kita berjalan bersama sayang

meraih tujuan kita berdua di masa depan

kalo kamu khawatir 

tadahkan tangan kita mari berdoa bersama

cintaku aku beruntung memilikimu

kamu harta kharun ku Yang paling berharga

aku Sayang kamu cintaku selamanya

dari aku cintamu untukmu tersayang indah kharun nisa

14/03/2022

antara jakarta-bekasi

saksi cinta kita


Loves Regard,

Allah with me













































Jumat, 10 Januari 2020

Sleep Pills


In beginning you shower me of love
you tells me everyday how much you love me
you are really sweet my honey
you  heals my insecurity and forgot my past

everytime i saw your face
i got energy and heartbeat
everytime we laughing and staring each other
its caged me there like a prisioner
i keep missing you always and everyday


you are really great handle your words
you keep me silent when we argue
you are also really great for guide me to the unknown place
its the dark place but its like fairy tale
i followed you my love
looking for water in my empty sahara

i said your name often than my god
its wrong i know
thats why he punished me
when it comes confusing me
is it there your love ?
question often appears on my thoughts
then my feeling must be killed

today when i saw you lost
the fool me just silent
i want help you with everything of mine
is it god trying to show us?
we are meet on our depression destiny
we healing and added it in same time
we know we enjoy a lot
then we also need more but depress enough
over again
dont wait till we overdose of sleep pills
that awakin in our world













Jumat, 03 Mei 2019

Bait-Bait Sahara


Sahara..
Dimana fatamorgana bersemayam
Dan musafir cinta berkelana
Badai pasir Sahara..
menjadi saksi sunyi pohon berduri
Yang tumbuh dalam tanah tandus
Embun di sahara
Bagai penyejuk dalam kemarau panjang
Sahara yang merindu
Merindu embun yang hadir dalam bait
Bait cinta sang kuasa
Melalui firmanya
Dilantunkan merdu
Saharapun dilanda tetesan embun
Yang menjadi butiran deras menyapu kemarau
Deras bak air hujan yang membasuh sahara
Bait-bait sahara
Lantunan ayat alquran
Untuk Saharaku yang tandus



















Rabu, 19 Juli 2017

Gift Box of Life

as we know life is unpredictable
we passed the day
without know what tomorrow will happen
what we plan, could be as good as our expectation
but also could be changed to fits the flow
all things unpredictable
makes the day will feels like the gift box of life
we wake up and waiting for open our box
when the surprised is coming
trough the part of our life
when what we hope is become reality
its feel like the beauty of present in gift box
nor when sadness part of life will be the bad surprised
or the clue and warning for next present in gift box
its happening suddenly
from the start we born
then we getting child then teenage
then turn to mid-adult then adult to old
as you changed, your circumstance is following changed
then it become so surprising
like the gift box
we waiting for next surprise
we waiting for open it
we can't wait to know soon
we guessing what inside
how far my life will change tomorrow and years later
how iam in next 22?25?30?40?50?70?
what  i become?
its still keep as mystery
its still secret what inside in gift box of life


                           







Sabtu, 17 Juni 2017

The woman

the woman
she is the real ocean
who has deep heart but dangerous wave
she is the real sky
who has wide heart but untouchable 
and she is the real life
who has born a life and growing a life
the woman
she's not weak for real love but her softness is her weapon
who protect she loves
she's might tears but her tears is for happiness and care 
to be with her loves
the woman
who loved and want to be loved
who full of scars, heal and still stand up with her smile
who softly like cloudy inside and hard like diamond on heart
show her love not mean she is easy to have by anyone
the woman need a man
which the her ribs come from
who braver than her
who more powerful than her
who save his loves only for her
who can make her as his secret treasure that should protected
who can built her the strong defense
who can give her more than the wealth of world 
and who lead her to the place of eternal beauty forever
who a man
from
the woman